I am driving north from Grand Rapids, MI on a fairly new stretch of highway – feeling really thankful for the 20 minutes it shaves off my original drive home when a sight interrupts my reverie. Perched high on a hill just in front of me is a chalet. I can see the reflection of the setting sun in its picture windows that face west. What a view! There is a moment of disjoint before I recognize that this spectacular view must have been even more outstanding before the divided highway was rudely placed in the valley below. I wonder all the things the human part of a person wonders… what DID it look like with all those rolling fields to gaze out upon, can all that exhaust belching at a person be healthy, and even more material… did they get reimbursed for the obvious drop in property value? (I have my priorities.) I am also self-conscious. A moment ago I was basking in the glory of their concrete addition and offering thanks for what it means to my schedule. I feel dangerously close to idol worship.
Maybe I am strange, but this makes me think of Moses coming down off Mt. Sinai still glowing (quite literally) from his view up there. Like the chalet, he finds that while he was gazing at God’s glory – an ugly transformation has taken place in the valley. The crowd has gotten together and decided that they are going to improve things for themselves and not wait around for this slow moving God. So they decide on a way to speed up the process. Build a gold cow! Perfect. O.K, I don't really get how they decided that this was the answer. I mean, that wouldn’t be my first inclination.
Or would it? Here I am, taking the gold paved road to home rather than the meandering back roads; taking the quick and easy vs. the deliberate and interesting. And all for a measly 20 minutes! It is here that I kneel at the altar of least resistance and as a result sacrifice to the god of apathy on a regular basis. Where’s the view in that? It’s no wonder I find myself short of experiencing the glory of God; short of experiencing anything but the satisfaction of keeping a tight schedule. How satisfying is that really?
I sigh aloud. The truth is that nothing is satisfying compared to the glory of God. I know this, I’ve experienced it. Yet my concrete cows beacon me and I bow down so low that only their gray pallor fills my vision and invades my heart. I am immersed in this empty worship until a shaft of perfectly aimed sunlight cuts through my line of sight. A verse runs through my head, “Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let your Holy One see decay.” (Psalm 16: 9-10) In the blink of an eye, the chalet is past and I am heading west.
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I'm so very guilty of always wanting to take the easy, quick route. The past year and 1/2 have been difficult to say the least. Of course some of it has been my own doing. And yet I get angry when God doesn't bail me out. But I think some (or maybe all) of the junk we have to go through, whether it's our own fault or not, is part of our growth process. I guess if everything went like I'd like for it to go, then I probably wouldn't depend on God. But the struggles are reminders of how much I really do need Him in every area of my life. I realize what a ragamuffin I really am. Great stuff as usual my fellow ragamuffin friend.
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